Several weeks ago, I was asked to share part of my story in the weekend services at our church on Thanksgiving weekend. My heart started pounding the minute I was asked the question, and my flesh cried out, “NO!” Anyone who knows me, knows that I really, really, REALLY dislike being the center of attention and I do NOT like speaking in front of lots of people. I get very nervous, my voice shakes, my hands shake and I often get emotional…..not a pretty sight. :) But, instead of saying no, I asked, “Does this mean I have to be on stage?” I was hoping for maybe a video, rather than live. But a video was not what they wanted. I asked for time to pray about it. I really didn’t need to pray about it because I already knew the Lord was calling me to this. But, I just couldn’t make myself say yes…I guess I was stalling. I didn’t hear back from the lady that asked me for a couple of weeks, and to tell you the truth, I was hoping they had changed their minds or decided to ask someone else. But, as I said, I knew the Lord was telling me to do this. You see, about eight months or so ago (the exact date was April 11, because I have it in my journal :) ) I was praying and asking God if I should continue with my blog. “Do people get tired of reading about my life? Sometimes, I feel like I’m saying the same things over and over. I don’t want people to think I’m trying to get them to feel sorry for me. I don’t want to make people sad. God, I started this blog because I felt like you were telling me to do it. I felt like you wanted me to share with others about your goodness and faithfulness even in hard times. To encourage others that Your plan can be trusted. I’m just not sure what to do?” And as I prayed and read God’s Word, He led me to a verse for my answer. The verse is Matt. 10:27….What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the housetops.”
And so, when I was asked to speak at church, I knew what my answer was supposed to be. I knew that what God had been whispering to me, He wanted me to proclaim on the housetops (or stage, in this case!). The thing is, I’ve been walking with the Lord long enough to know firsthand that feeling of guilt and regret when I knowingly disobey Him. It is NOT a good feeling. So, with much fear and trembling and an abundance of faith in the Lord to help me through it, I said yes. And, I’ll admit I was very nervous, my voice was shaking, my hands were shaking, I got emotional, and it wasn’t a pretty sight. I’ve watched it…I know. I look like I was mad at the world, I don’t think I even smiled once! But, I did it and I made it through all three services without throwing up on stage! And can I just say…I’m glad it’s over! But more importantly, I’m glad that I obeyed. To God be the glory!
I’m so thankful for my three wonderful children who stood with me, as I shared OUR story. My prayer is that the Lord would use our story to encourage others and point others to Him. Several people have asked for a way to see or hear the service from that weekend. So if you’re interested, here is a link to our church’s website where you can watch the service from 11-29-14. http://www.crossroadsnewnan.org/thanksology/
Trusting His Plan,