Everywhere I Go…..He’s Not There; Everywhere I Go…..He Is There

I don’t always sleep well at night. Some nights it takes me forever to go to sleep. Some nights I fall asleep quickly enough, but my sleep is restless…waking up multiple times during the night. Sometimes going to sleep is not the problem, but I awake really early and can’t go back to sleep.

The other morning I woke up around 4:30 and could not go back to sleep. I tried and tried to fall back asleep, but I just couldn’t quiet my mind enough. I just kept thinking about the fact that everywhere I go, Greg’s not there. When I climb into bed at night, he’s not there. When I get up in the morning, he’s not there. When I sit down to eat a meal, he’s not there. When I do laundry, there are none of his clothes because he’s not there. When I go to church, he’s not there. When I go to family gatherings, he’s not there. When I sit on the couch to watch tv, he’s not there. When I go to a restaurant, he’s not there. When I have parenting issues, he’s not there. When I am sick, he’s not there. When I have to make big decisions, he’s not there. When I’m afraid, he’s not there. When I don’t know how to do something, he’s not there. When I have a birthday, he’s not there. When I’m sitting on the beach, he’s not there. When it’s time for him to be coming home from work, he’s not there. When I expect to hear him singing in the bathroom as he’s getting ready for work in the morning, he’s not there. When we go on a family vacation, he’s not there. When his birthday or our anniversary rolls around, he’s not there. When I need advice or wisdom, he’s not there. When there’s a holiday to celebrate, he’s not there. When I receive mail or phone calls for him, it’s a cruel reminder that he’s not there. When I’m frustrated, or happy, or lonely, or anxious, or excited, or overwhelmed, or sad…..he’s not there.

I finally just got up and started my day….albeit a bit early for me. :) I made my coffee and sat down to spend some time with the Lord. I was still feeling awfully sad, when He gently reminded me of Psalm 139. This is one of my favorite chapters in the Bible. As I reflected on this chapter, I could visualize and still hear my sweet little girls when they were about 5 and 7 reciting it…..all 24 verses! We worked on memorizing it in our homeschool; adding one or two verses each week, until they knew it all. I had no idea then, that the Lord would use that sweet memory and those sweet words to encourage me all these years later!

That morning the Lord reminded me that everywhere I go, HE is there. He reminded me that He knows when I sit down and when I rise up; He discerns my thoughts from afar. He knows when I go out and when I lie down. Even before a word is on my tongue, He already knows it. He hems me in, behind and before, and He lays His hand upon me. He tells me that there is no place that I can go and be away from Him; I cannot flee from His Presence. Everywhere I go, He is there!

What a kind God to encourage me in this way! He really is faithful and He really is good!

You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Trusting His Plan,
Sandra

“What Are You Reading?” Wednesday

It’s that time again! Time to share what you’re reading. I’ve gotten so many great new titles to add to my ever-growing list of books to read! I hope you’re finding some to add to your list as well.

Currently I am reading The Kitchen House by Kathleen Grissom. I don’t often read fiction, but I’m so glad I picked this book up….it is great! I started it while we were on the cruise, but just couldn’t get very far. I was too easily distracted by the people, the beaches and of course, the beautiful ocean! I am about half-way through it now and am enjoying it so much. I highly recommend it! Even someone on the ship commented that it is one of the best books she has ever read!

This book has really had me thinking a lot lately. It still amazes and saddens me that slavery ever existed and was an acceptable thing by so many. How can one human being treat another human being in that manner?? It still amazes and saddens me that the Holocaust ever existed and was an acceptable thing by so many. How can one human being treat another human being in that manner?? It still amazes and saddens me that slavery continues to exist today. How can one human being treat another human being in that manner?? It still amazes and saddens me that abortion continues to exist today. How can one human being treat another human being in that manner??

What are you reading?? Please share!

Trusting His Plan,
Sandra

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What We’ve Been Up To

I haven’t posted much lately for two reasons.  The first is that the kids and I were out of town for a week; we enjoyed a family vacation!  If we were going to have a family vacation at all this year it had to be over Katie’s spring break, as she will be working all summer again this year at Winshape Camps.  We were thrilled to learn that Emilie’s spring break was the same week as Katie’s!  Because Jake and I homeschool, we had the flexibility to take off the same week as well.  So….off we went!  We decided to go on a cruise and we had a wonderful time.  The weather was perfect, the ports were beautiful, the relaxation was wonderful and the food was plentiful!  :)  At the last minute, we decided to fly to Fort Lauderdale instead of driving.  Going down was great….made the first flight….no problems!  Coming back however was a different story.  We spent the whole day in the airport.  We stood-by for and did not make the first TEN flights.  :(  Praise the Lord all four of us cleared for the very last flight of the day!  I was so thankful that we did not have to spend the night in the airport.  So grateful for the privilege of being able to fly on a pass, but boy does it stress me out!!

The second reason I haven’t posted much lately is that I’ve been sick for several days.  Nothing serious, just the same head congestion/cough/sore throat that many others have right now.  Just didn’t have the energy to do much.  I love the beauty of Spring, but the older I get the more the pollen seems to bother me.  Thankfully, I’m feeling much better today.

Here are a few pictures from our cruise.  I’d love to hear some of the fun things that you guys are doing for Spring Break this year!

Waiting for the shuttle to the pier.

Waiting for the shuttle to the pier.

Sail-away!

Sail-away!

Jake was eager to start the "relaxation" part of the cruise!

Jake was eager to start the “relaxation” part of the cruise!

Beautiful sunset.

Beautiful sunset.

Ferry ride to Blue Lagoon in Nassau.

Ferry ride to Blue Lagoon in Nassau.

So beautiful!

So beautiful!

Doing what they love to do!

Doing what they love to do!

Beautiful Blue Lagoon!

Beautiful Blue Lagoon!

Love these three so much!

Love these three so much!

Dolphins!

Dolphins!

Key West

Key West

We visited Fort Zachary Taylor in Key West.

We visited Fort Zachary Taylor in Key West.

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Jake at the top of the fort

A beautiful beach at Fort Taylor

A beautiful beach at Fort Taylor

We were thinking of you, Amanda Kurz, while we were eating these!

We were thinking of you, Amanda Kurz, while we were eating these! Yummy!!

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The beautiful Celebrity Constellation

So thankful for the blessing of family and the chance to be able to spend time together!

Trusting His Plan,

Sandra

Monday’s Memory

My silly Emilie!

My silly Emilie!

“What Are You Reading?” Wednesday

Awhile back, I read The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson; it was a wonderful book! So when I came across this intriguing title and realized it was written by the same author, I decided to pick it up. I’m so glad that I did! It is a great book and the Lord put it in my path at just the right time in my life.

“What if the life you really want, and the future God wants for you, is hiding right now in your biggest problem, your worst failure….your greatest fear?” This statement from the back of the book really caught my attention! What about you? If so, I highly recommend this book!

I’d love to hear what you’re reading this week…feel free to share!

Trusting His Plan,

Sandra

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To A New Widow

Elisabeth Elliot is a remarkable lady with a remarkable story. Her first husband, Jim Elliot, was brutally killed on the mission field in Ecuador. Elisabeth did not let her difficult situation stop her from living out what God had called her to do. Today, at the age of 88, she continues to be a mighty voice for Christ.

This morning I came across this piece that Mrs. Elliot wrote in a newsletter from 2003. It really resonated with me and her words are spot on. Just thought I’d share with you.  For those of you who have lost a spouse, maybe her words will help you to know that you are not alone in the feelings and emotions that you experience.  For those of you who have, fortunately, never had to endure the pain of widowhood, perhaps Elisabeth’s words will give you a small glimpse into what that life is like, so that you can better understand it.

I pray that at the age of 88 (if the Lord hasn’t already called me home), I could be even HALF the woman that Elisabeth Elliot is!

Enjoy this beautiful day!

Trusting His Plan,

Sandra

“What Are You Reading?” Wednesday

For the past several months, I have been meeting weekly with two other ladies who lost their husbands around the same time I did. We meet for fellowship, encouragement, prayer and Bible study. We have recently begun a new study and we are all really enjoying it. It is a study about prayer and it is based on the life of David.

The book is so rich, and I really enjoy the author’s writing style. The author happens to be the wife of the contractor that I used for the recent work I had done on my house! We were just talking one day and he mentioned that his wife was an author. After our conversation, he brought me a copy of her book…and I’m so thankful that he did!

So if you’re looking for a great study to do individually or as a group, I highly recommend “Steadfast” by Lauren Mitchell. I think you’ll really be blessed by it AND you’ll be supporting a local author!

Steadfast: A Study of the Prayer That Made David's Whole Heart Rely on a Steadfast God

Steadfast: A Study of the Prayer That Made David's Whole Heart Rely on a Steadfast God

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I’d love to hear what Bible study you are involved in or what book you are currently reading! Please share!

Trusting His Plan,
Sandra

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