Psalm 56:9 says, “This I know, that God is for me.” He is for me. Those four little words have made such a difference in my life over the last several years. I’ve always known and counted on the fact that Jesus is with me, but realizing that He is FOR me has drastically changed my thinking. You see, when Greg was diagnosed with melanoma I knew that God was WITH me, but it really didn’t feel like He was FOR me. When the disease returned to Greg’s body a year after the initial diagnosis, I knew that God was WITH me. But FOR me??? As I watched Greg struggle in his battle against the ugliness that is melanoma, I knew that God was WITH me. I even thanked God for His promise that He would never leave me or forsake me. But I wasn’t really feeling the FOR me part. And as we gathered around Greg’s bed and said goodbye to him, I knew that God was WITH me, but I sure didn’t feel like God was FOR me. Nor did I feel like God was FOR me as I faced the fact that I was now a widow at the age of 48. I didn’t feel like God was FOR me as I faced the fact that my children, ages 20, 18 and 14 were now fatherless. I have struggled to feel like God is FOR me, as I have had to navigate this road of widowhood, this road of single parenting. This road of loneliness.
My thinking has been flawed though. Did you catch it? In all these instances, I didn’t FEEL like God was for me. But that’s not what God’s Word says. It doesn’t say, “This I FEEL, that God is for me.” It says, “This I KNOW, that God is for me.” Just as there is a big difference between the words WITH and FOR, there is also a big difference between the words FEEL and KNOW. I don’t always have to FEEL something to make it so. Just as I claim the promise that Jesus is WITH me and will never leave me or forsake me, I must also claim the promise that He is FOR me…..even if it doesn’t FEEL like it.
Over the years, as I have started to claim the promise that He is FOR me, I have begun to FEEL that He is FOR me. Sometimes the FEELING comes as a result of the KNOWING! The Lord continues to reinforce this promise in my life in many different ways. A couple of ways is through books and songs. I want to close by sharing an example of each with you, with the hope that you will be encouraged in the fact that He is FOR you…even if you don’t FEEL it.
This is an excerpt from a great Bible study that I am currently going through. It’s actually the second time that I have done the study and both times this paragraph really spoke to me.
“Knowing that God is for me does not mean that nothing bad will ever happen to me. Most people really do believe that if they don’t do anything terrible, nothing really bad will happen to them. They may not confess this with their mouth, but it is how they function. Our problem is our definition of ‘bad’. What we see as bad is often a gift. The problem is we aren’t willing to receive it. It takes away our pseudo security. When ‘bad’ happens it forces our eyes off the shifting sands to search for something steadfast. In that is the gift.” (from Steadfast by Lauren Mitchell)
And this is a wonderful song…You are FOR me, by Kari Jobe. It is beautiful and I love the lyrics!
KNOWING that He is FOR me has made a huge difference in how I FEEL! He is FOR me! And He is FOR you, too!!
This I KNOW, that God is FOR me!!
Trusting His Plan,