Dear 16 Year Old Me

I may have posted this before, but I saw it again today and I think it’s important enough to share once more! One of the girls in the video passed away today at the age of 26 because of ocular melanoma (melanoma that started in her eye). Melanoma is NOT “just skin cancer”!! Share this information with those you love.


Just To Give You A Little Chuckle! :-)

Just wanted to share a story that brought a smile to my face this past week. For those of you that really knew Greg, I think it will make you giggle too!

Over the past several months, I have had to learn to do many things that I have never had to do before because Greg always took care of these things for us. One such thing is car insurance. Turns out that our policy is due to be renewed this month. So, having the training that I have had over the last 27+ years, I knew not to just automatically pay the bill. I thought maybe I should shop around to see if I could get a better rate. But, seeing as how I’m already swamped with “learning” new things, I thought maybe now is not the best time to do that…maybe at our next renewal. But, I did think that since we now have one less driver our rates might decrease some, so I decided to call the agent and discuss this before I mailed in the payment. (Ends up my rates are probably going to increase, rather than decrease since I no longer qualify for the “marriage discount”. Not happy about that at all, but that’s a story for another time!)

Anyway, as I was talking to the agent about our policy he told me that he vividly remembered meeting Greg the first time. He said that Greg came into his office, sat down and pulled out his folder. He said Greg knew what he wanted, how he wanted it done, had shopped around and knew his stuff! Greg asked lots of questions….questions that he, as the agent should have been asking! I told him that it did not surprise me at all that Greg had “done his homework”! He said that he often uses Greg as an example in training meetings to show what it means to be prepared. I told the agent that I was sure that he had to work for that sale and that he probably felt like he had really earned his money that day!

I just loved how he remembered such specific details and how Greg had made an impression on him. And how none of the things that he said surprised me in the least! Just another proof that Greg was the same Greg no matter where he was or who he was with! And just another reminder to me of why I loved him and miss him so much!

I’m sure many of you are shaking your heads saying, “Yep! That sounds just like Greg!” I hope this story brings a smile to your face as you remember Greg…the one you called family member, co-worker, and/or friend! Thank you all for your support over the past few months. Your words of encouragement, prayers and acts of kindness have meant so much!

Trusting His Plan,

Will You Be My Valentine?

Friday was a hard day for me….harder than I thought it would be. Valentines Day….a day to express love, a day for romance. For the last thirty years, I have spent that day with the man that I loved. Some of those days we spent at a restaurant, some days we enjoyed a dinner at home, some days there were gifts, or flowers, or candy or cards. Some of those days we celebrated as a couple and some days we celebrated as a family. But every one of those thirty Valentines Days…we were together. This year was different….he wasn’t here. It was a hard day.

But God, in His goodness still allowed me to express love and feel loved. I received cards and messages and texts from so many telling me that they were thinking about me and praying for me on this day. My sweet Katie drove up from school and surprised me with beautiful roses. I was in the bank and came out to find her standing by my car, flowers in hand. I was able to enjoy lunch with my three great loves…Katie, Emilie and Jacob. After lunch, Katie headed back to school and Emilie, Jake and I ended the evening by going to the movies and getting ice cream afterwards. He is good to me!

The Lord continued to remind me throughout the day that even though I feel lonely, I am never alone. Even when I don’t feel loved or special, I am loved by Him and I am special to Him. He loves me so much that He gave His only Son to pay the price for my sins. He loves me so much that I am inscribed on the palms of His hand. He loves me so much that He catches every tear that falls from my eye. He loves me so much that He will never leave me or forsake me. He loves me so much that He is preparing a place for me that I can live with Him for eternity. He loves me so much that He gives me the name Daughter of the Most High King. He loves me without conditions and He loves me without limit. He is the Lover of my soul. I can not even begin to fathom the height or depth or magnitude of His love for me! He really does love me and I’m SO glad that He is my True Valentine!!

Trusting His Plan,

Meditation Monday

Tonight I talked with a friend that Greg and I met at MD Anderson. His wife is currently doing battle with melanoma. We talked about how hard it is to see someone we love so much have to endure such pain and sickness. We talked about how it’s so hard to understand why the Lord allows these heart-breaking things into our lives. The Lord continues to show me that although the question is “Why”, the answer is always “Trust.”

Tonight in my reading, the Lord led me to Romans 11:33-36. “Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unfathomable, inscrutable, unsearchable are His judgments, His decisions! And how untraceable, mysterious, undiscoverable are His ways, His methods, His paths! For who has known the mind of the Lord and who has understood His thoughts, or who has ever been His counselor? Or who has first given God anything that he might be paid back or that he could claim a recompense? For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. For all things originate with Him and come from Him; all things live through Him, and all things center in and tend to consummate and to end in Him. To Him be glory forever! Amen – so be it!”

I don’t know His thoughts and I don’t understand His ways. He certainly doesn’t owe me anything. I still have lots of “Why’s”, but I choose to trust. From Him, and through Him and to Him are all things. He is my EVERYTHING! To Him be glory forever! Amen – so be it!

Trusting His Plan,

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