28 Years

We did it!

We did it!


Today would have been mine and Greg’s 28th anniversary. I’ve actually been dreading this day for several weeks now. But after much prayer (aka whining and complaining), the Lord began to show me that I needed to celebrate this day…..not sit around and feel sorry for myself. An anniversary is a day to remember a significant event. September 27, 1986 was one of the very best days of my life. I look back on that day with much joy and happiness! It is a day that I always want to remember. So, today I choose to celebrate (with some difficulty and a few tears 😦 ) the gift of marriage and the fact that He chose to bless me with that gift for 27 years!

My day was filled with sweet surprises…from thoughtful texts and messages from friends and family, to flowers and gifts, to a delicious dinner out with my three great kids. If I can’t celebrate my anniversary with my husband, then celebrating with the three biggest blessings that came from my marriage is the next best thing!!
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I am so thankful for the Lord’s sweet reminders to me that He loves me and remembers me. That He is always with me and will never leave me. That He is for me and not against me. So tonight, although I go to bed with a lonely heart, I also go to bed with a full heart! A heart full of love for my husband. A heart full of love for my children. A heart full of love for my family and friends. A heart full of love for my Savior!

Trusting His Plan,
Sandra

He Remembers

My beautiful niece, Amanda, will soon be delivering her first baby….a boy! We are so excited for her and her husband, Ryan. They just recently shared with us the name that they have chosen and why they chose it. These are Amanda’s words….

“We have told several of you, but we are happy to officially announce the name of our little boy, who is scheduled to arrive in 6 short weeks: Zachary Gregory Kurz!
His middle name is after my Uncle Gregory Masters, who passed away of malignant melanoma a little less than a year ago. Zachary means, “God remembers,” and we believe that God remembers the pain and suffering that my uncle and our family went through and has been redeeming this difficulty in our lives, as well as bringing new life through our little one. We hope to honor my uncle, who is pictured with us below, by incorporating his name in our child’s name because my uncle was the godly, loving, humble, and devoted kind of man that we hope our little Zachary Gregory will one day become. Thank you for sharing in our joy!”

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I am humbled and blessed that Amanda and Ryan would choose to honor Greg’s memory in this very special way. Greg loved babies (most things about them, anyway 🙂 ) and I’m sad that he won’t be here to enjoy spending time with our sweet great-nephew, Zack. But how exciting will that day be when we are all together in Heaven and Greg is able to meet his namesake for the first time!

The same God that was present with us in our tears as Greg left this world and entered into the very Presence of God, is the same God that will be present with us in our joy as we welcome sweet Zachary Gregory Kurz into this world. He is the SAME God….He does NOT change! Thank you Jesus!!

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The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. Job 1:21

Trusting His Plan,
Sandra

One Thing

“But that’s not fair! It’s the ONE THING that I REALLY want!” That was a lament that Greg and I often heard from one of our children when they were younger and didn’t get what they wanted. Maybe it was an item they wanted, something they wanted to do or somewhere they wanted to go. But whatever it was, if we said “No”, we were often met with this response. As if, had we agreed to it, all would be right with this child’s world……at least until the next “One Thing” came along!

There was quite a bit of drama included in these little episodes, and we joke about it now. But how many of us, as adults, have that ONE THING in our lives? How do we feel when we want something so badly, but we can’t have it? Maybe we stand shaking our little fists at God and saying, “But that’s not fair! It’s the ONE THING that I REALLY want!” “If I could just have this One Thing, my life would be complete or at least so much better.” “This is the One Thing that would make me happy.” “I’m not asking for much, I don’t understand why I can’t have it!”

That One Thing can be different for different people. For some it may be a spouse. “God, if you’d just bring that special someone into my life, I’d be happy.” For some it may be a changed spouse. “God, if you’d just change him/her, things would be so much better.” Maybe your One Thing is a good friend. “God, all I want is one good friend who I can be myself around. Someone who “gets me”. For others that One Thing might be a child. “God, why can’t I have a baby? I don’t get it! If You would just give me a baby, I’d never ask for anything else.” Your One Thing might be a better job or a different work environment. Maybe it’s a house, a newer house, or a bigger house. For many the One Thing is more money. “God, if I had more money and didn’t have to stress about finances so much, I could spend more time with my family. I could tithe more. I could be more generous.”

If we’re honest, most of us have our One Thing, and often our One Thing changes throughout the seasons of our lives. I personally have been dealing with my own One Thing over the last several years. From October 2011 until October 2013, my One Thing was “God please heal my husband this side of Heaven. This is the ONE THING that I REALLY want, God.” I prayed, and I begged and I believed with all of my heart that God was going to give me my ONE THING. I claimed His promises, I hid His Word in my heart and hung it in my house as a constant reminder. But God, in His Sovereignty, did not give me my ONE THING. My heart was crushed and my world was rocked. I didn’t understand. It made no sense to me. I just didn’t “get it”. But by God’s grace, I can honestly say that I never got angry at God or stood shaking my fist at Him. But on October 20, 2013 I did find myself dealing with another One Thing. I often found myself saying, “God, the One Thing that I want, I can never have. I just want Greg back here with me and the kids. I just want our family back.” I have struggled with the pain of knowing that the One Thing that I want, I can never, ever have. I know that I will see Greg again and our family will be reunited, but oh, how I long to have him here with me now!

Over the past several months, the Lord has been dealing with me regarding these two little words…..One Thing. He is showing me that all of these One Things are the wrong things. It’s not that they are all bad desires, but they should not be the biggest desires of our hearts. I began to study God’s Word and what He has to say about “One Thing”. Here are a few things that He’s teaching me (and that I’m trying to learn 🙂 )

1. The One Thing that I should ask for and seek after is that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, and that I might gaze upon the beauty of the Lord. Psalm 27:4

2. The One Thing that should be more important to me than anything else is spending time with Jesus. Luke 10:41-42

3. I should not forget this One Thing…that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. 2 Peter 3:8

4. I need to get rid of the “One Things” in my life that are distracting me from my relationship with God. Mark 10:21

5. I may not know the answer to many things, but One Thing I do know….I once was lost, but now I’m found. I once was blind, but now I see! John 9:25

6. I am still not all I should be, but I am bringing all my energies to bear on this ONE THING: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God is calling me up to Heaven because of what Christ Jesus did for me. Philippians 3:13-14

I leave you with a song that means so much to me. As a matter of fact, it has been the ringtone on my phone for about the last two years. In a world that seems to be crashing down around me and always changing, I am learning that Jesus is the ONE THING that never changes. His love endures forever. Praise God for His faithfulness! This ONE THING remains!

Trusting His Plan,
Sandra

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